fake noise

literacy is ruining me
take loss out of a math equestrian
thanks!

brain blood seems like different blood than is in the rest of your body. i've been told that it's all circulated throughout the body, but i've never seen that happen. i've been told i've felt it happen, or rather that i feel it happen, at all times. i really don't know how to feel about that, though. i could lose or win or stop, or go, and the blood would still move, and i'd still not understand it. to further requite this disposition and deprivation, i'm going to drink lots of water (which i understand), do twenty pushups really fast, play a game of basketball, run two miles, stretch, apply and re-apply. i understand all of this. and though it leads to a nice (?) feeling, a safe (?) feeling, i don't think it leads to growth or anything natural or substantial. financial gain is the only path to growth. to quote Mr. T: "Being able to read is like having a free pass into a million different worlds." and that's absolutely terrifying.