on literature (Women)

my reading list for the past (few?) years has been scant, mostly due to alcohol, social endeavors, vacations, and scholarly pursuits. however, i just noticed that most books in this period have been focused around the women who have caught my attention. i'm currently reading 'a little pregnant' because it was written by Janine's uncle and aunt. before that i read 'franny and zoey' because Janine gave the book to me. 3 years ago i started another such salinger, 'catcher in the rye', because rene gave it to me to read. we broke up and i quit reading it, and still have yet to finish. i read various Willa Cather works, along with various retrospectives of her work, because of Meg's connection and relationship to the specific author. my Mom suggests anything and i usually read it. my latest indulgences have been jeffery brown comic shorts and collections (by Mary J and Dani B, respectively) and the seattle zine 'dreamy vs sucks' from Janine.

to be fair, i'm also reading 'on the wine trail', which was given to me by a man named rick who was a frequent at the wine shop in flagstaff. and i plan to read 'the universal baseball association, inc' from brant.

but all i want is your love.

fake noise

literacy is ruining me
take loss out of a math equestrian
thanks!

brain blood seems like different blood than is in the rest of your body. i've been told that it's all circulated throughout the body, but i've never seen that happen. i've been told i've felt it happen, or rather that i feel it happen, at all times. i really don't know how to feel about that, though. i could lose or win or stop, or go, and the blood would still move, and i'd still not understand it. to further requite this disposition and deprivation, i'm going to drink lots of water (which i understand), do twenty pushups really fast, play a game of basketball, run two miles, stretch, apply and re-apply. i understand all of this. and though it leads to a nice (?) feeling, a safe (?) feeling, i don't think it leads to growth or anything natural or substantial. financial gain is the only path to growth. to quote Mr. T: "Being able to read is like having a free pass into a million different worlds." and that's absolutely terrifying.

the reliance.

so i'm down on money and high on time.

i used to keep up with friends and internet, phone and frenzy.

don't so much anymore.

in love,

with lack of time,

with woman.

i mean absolutely no harm and no regret. luungs.