fake noise

literacy is ruining me
take loss out of a math equestrian
thanks!

brain blood seems like different blood than is in the rest of your body. i've been told that it's all circulated throughout the body, but i've never seen that happen. i've been told i've felt it happen, or rather that i feel it happen, at all times. i really don't know how to feel about that, though. i could lose or win or stop, or go, and the blood would still move, and i'd still not understand it. to further requite this disposition and deprivation, i'm going to drink lots of water (which i understand), do twenty pushups really fast, play a game of basketball, run two miles, stretch, apply and re-apply. i understand all of this. and though it leads to a nice (?) feeling, a safe (?) feeling, i don't think it leads to growth or anything natural or substantial. financial gain is the only path to growth. to quote Mr. T: "Being able to read is like having a free pass into a million different worlds." and that's absolutely terrifying.

the reliance.

so i'm down on money and high on time.

i used to keep up with friends and internet, phone and frenzy.

don't so much anymore.

in love,

with lack of time,

with woman.

i mean absolutely no harm and no regret. luungs.

ten seconds and counting

well, more like 7 minutes at the library's 'quick computers', but it feels as if it's seconds. last update for august, this has been the longest august, but short upon retrospect, as always is. it's already cooling down here, and i hope it stays. i'm house-sitting for a cat, and ate a peach while i was at the sat-upon house. apartment.

i just got an email from my school that they'd been contacted by some outside publishing company (a german-based company) who were interested in publishing my thesis. whether this happens or not is inconsequential at the moment; it has made me realize i very much DO need to follow my 'professional' career, which would be good for me. i'm applying for jobs, though everyone is asking me for things that seem unrealistic or time-insensitive. it's my view that we need better people up top, hiring people, but maybe it's just my view. i need to go running all this week if i want any shot at being ready to run the chicago marathon in october. that will come quick. i'll be in arizona from sept 8-14. i'll be in denver sept 14-16. i'll be in chicago after that. don't know after that.